I found it hard to go for my run this morning. Getting out of bed wasn’t hard as I thought my phone was actually ringing & didn’t realize it was just the alarm when I bolted out of bed to where it was charging in the kitchen. Got my gear on & sat on the couch as I usually do to lace up my runners. After lacing them, I just flopped back onto the couch feeling like I couldn’t be bothered. I gave my trainer a brief thought – what would he say? “Get off your arse” was the resounding answer in my head. I got up & ran, actually doing the best splits for the last 3km than I’d done in forever. I realized while I was running that I probably need something new to train for. What had gotten me up every week morning for the past 3 ½ months was done (the trek).
I know I want to do the 10km in Warrnambool again in January, but that’s too far away to be training for now. I know I’d like to do the 12km Maribyrnong run that I missed last October, but again a little far away. I started looking at closer events & found a 10km “Run Melbourne”. Big event. In 8 weeks. Since then I’ve been having a minor melt down in my head. Can I train for it in time? It’s too hard to train for longer distances in winter; it’s too hard to get the longer runs done when there is not enough daylight; it’s pointless doing them on the treadmill. What if I can’t run faster than I did in January?
I feel very anxious!!! I need someone to give me a pep talk. Not sure if I’ll talk to my trainer or not tonight. He’ll probably just laugh at me. Or Not.